A.Ramsey

Jayden Alexander

Anastasia Marie

My son, is very very well mannered. Thus far I haven't had a problem with him fighting, kicking, biting or alot of the other things toddler boys are known for. I've been able to keep him as my little sunshine, up to this point & I'm very proud of him.

Being Bipolar makes almost everything a challenge. Including Parenting & relationships. I really haven't had any challenges, with my son. More so, with myself.

Hmm.. My life, what a tiny space.. to try & fit this into. lol. I'm a 25 yr old, Mommy to Jayden Alexander & Anastasia Marie. My 1st husband passed away, 01.12.06. My daughter, lives with his parents in my home state of West Virginia. I'm now, engaged as of August 07 to James Lyn. We're expecting a baby boy, 10.25.08. Well.. I guess that about sums up the important parts.. lol. For now, I'm a sahm. However, that has it's good & bad days. Most of the time I'd much rather return to working. I don't feel like I'm contributing to my house, as much as I could. I will return to the working world at some point. I met my fiance, on the internet.. over a year ago now. I moved to Texas... in August last year to be with him. Which, was a grand mistake on my part. We should have stayed in West Virginia. The grass is NOT always greener on the other side & if the other side is Texas... it's not green at all. It's brown. lol. Anyways... Thus far, it's been a decent pregnancy. My son & I are growing rapidly. My fiance, my son Jayden, my son Xavier & I are all very very blessed to have each other & the life we have together. There's not too many times in this life, that you get a 2nd chance to have a family, especially one as great as ours. I have learned that enviroment changes everything though. My goal is to get our family & our lives out of Texas because it does nothing but hinder us, for a multitude of reasons.



* Footnote: I'm 25 years old & I've got a story to tell. Don't we all ? For now, I'll save all of that for another day. Except for this little footnote. I struggled through my teenage & young adult years, with myself. I'd have these weeks of depression, followed by weeks of mania. I really just couldn't figure out what was wrong with me. So, I always just chalked it up to my life. My life was hard, so these bouts of hysteria & comatose.. had to be from that. When I was 15, I was diagnosed as Bipolar. At that time, I just wouldn't believe that. I'm not " Crazy ". When I was 20 I was diagnosed once again, with the same disorder. Since then, I've spent alot of time learning about the disorder & coping with it. I call it " Splendid Insanity ". Because, when you're up... you're WAY up & when you're down... you're WAY down. You have extreme moments of happieness, followed with these moments of extreme depression. Your life can effect your moods & episodes, but when you have this disorder, sometimes there's simply no explanation at all.. for why you feel the way you do. It's a very hard mentality to have, when you an't control how you're going to feel today. There's a multitude of medications & theraphys you can go through to help you with this disorder. I've been through just about all of them. For almost 2 years, I've been medication & treatment free because I had just had enough of the roulette with all of it. That's me being Self Righteous. lol. However, people need to be more informed about this mental disorder & more considerate. You don't know who has this disorder & who doesn't. It's a very common disorder. You wouldn't even know I had it, if I wasn't so open. I'm open... because information is a powerful tool.

** Update : I have now made a group on Bellyhood, for discussion, help & support with this disorder. Anyone that feels like they could benefit from it, please feel free to join. Education is key. Just being someone's friend makes all the difference in the world on one of those oh so common rough days. Hope to see you there! (: **



Bipolar Disorder.. a place for the Splendid & the Insanity

My inspiration for every single thing I do & do not do, is my son Jayden. He is like Sunshine. I really could not ask for a better child. He makes it fun, to be a Mommy & that's what it's all about.

Music. Writing. Crafting. Playin on the internet. Board & Computer Games. I have O.C.D. so, keeping things organized & convenient is a must for me & my house. Goin for walks. Blowing bubbles on the porch with my son. Photography. I LOVE taking pictures & editing them.